I don't like who I've been these past few weeks. I feel like I've been putting socializing before being myself. This is one of the reasons why I've been so desperately trying to stay invisible this past year. I could tell from the start that people in this school were way too different from me. It's hard to be yourself around people who most likely wouldn't even understand it. So I told myself "either be yourself, or stay anonymous." and that's what I did. It's been over a year now. Until a few weeks ago, I was one of the only two people who kept comfortably to themselves.
I hate to have to change the way I am to adapt to other people out of kindness to those who care enough to approach me, but I have a hard time not being nice to nice people. Now I'm nice, but I'm also a liar. I feel like I've tweaked my personality way too much. It's making me insanely uncomfortable in my skin. Now what am I supposed to do? Being alone is one thing, asking to be left alone is another, especially when someone is nice to you and depends on you. Could someone please guide me to a time machine? Oh well. I may not be able to return to being invisible, nor can I say I necessarily want to be now that the cost is to coldly turn my back on perfectly nice people, but I did do something about it. Hopefully things will be easier now.
name: Tiffany date of birth: May 28 1992 languages: French & English
About me: I'm a friendly but somewhat reserved person with a passion for creativity, for things like books, paintings, objects, clothing, scenery, music, photography, movies, and so on. I like people who are true and open minded.
About this blog: I blog because I like it. I think it's a funner and truer way for people to get to know eachother than Facebook. This is my space.
music: Radiohead, Thom Yorke, Imogen Heap, The Sounds, Tegan and Sara, Blue Foundation, The Sounds, Metric, Feist, The Beatles (+ Across the Universe soundtrack), Olivia Lufkin, Crystal Castles, Zero 7, piano music
movies: A.I. Artificial Intelligence*, 1408*, Sleuth*, What Dreams May Come, Vanilla Sky, The Chinese botanist's daughters, Twilight, Garden State, Alfie, Across the Universe, The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, Girl Interrupted*, V for Vendetta, The Pianist*, Coraline*
TV shows: Fringe, The X-Files, House, The L Word, Death Note, Honey & Clover, 1 Litre of Tears
books: A Million Little Pieces, the Uglies series (the first 3 only), everything by Amélie Nothomb
