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that subject again Wednesday, May 12, 2010 Trying hard to repress any thoughts about him, with more or less success. It's easy to ignore for a while but I think it's starting to catch up on me. After all, it's hard to ignore something you see as the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. It's worse when you don't know weather it could be an illusion or an exaggeration, further more if you know you're not supposed to find out. This complete stranger, all I want right now is to see his face. It's shameful. I don't know why I keep writing about this on my blog. I think it's because this place is my safety, my friend. People who read this might think it's immature to be constantly talking about these kind of things, but I don't think anyone visits anyway. Besides, whoever you are, if you are reading this, I doubt that you came here to judge me. It might be against my will but it's in my nature to need to express myself when feeling emotionally cornered. Call it being a girl, call it being human, call it being plain dramatic, what can I say. It's really weird, constantly contradicting yourself. It's like having a double personality: "Stay away from him, don't let any of these stupid thoughts get to you, you don't know him, he's just a random person, you're making a big deal out of nothing and it brings you nothing but harm. If you don't stop you might freak him out. He wants to be left alone. / Is he there today? Should I go over there? Red? Blue? Grey? smoke..? How does what he sees turn out in his head? Does pacing mean he's comfortable?" These kind of things often buzz around my head. Does this make a secret admirer or some kind of stalker? It's enough to make anyone uncomfortable. But I have a fascination for people in general. When your mouth is shut most of your life your eyes and ears are your only connection to reality. Obsessive observations come to me naturally no matter where I go. Should one subject particularly draw my attention I find myself in a cycle of over analyzing. Like a puzzle with many small pieces that you absolutely have to finish. I'll keep trying to keep it from getting to me. 0 Comments: Post a Comment

name: Tiffany date of birth: May 28 1992 languages: French & English About me: I'm a friendly but somewhat reserved person with a passion for creativity, for things like books, paintings, objects, clothing, scenery, music, photography, movies, and so on. I like people who are true and open minded. About this blog: I blog because I like it. I think it's a funner and truer way for people to get to know eachother than Facebook. This is my space. music: Radiohead, Thom Yorke, Imogen Heap, The Sounds, Tegan and Sara, Blue Foundation, The Sounds, Metric, Feist, The Beatles (+ Across the Universe soundtrack), Olivia Lufkin, Crystal Castles, Zero 7, piano music movies: A.I. Artificial Intelligence*, 1408*, Sleuth*, What Dreams May Come, Vanilla Sky, The Chinese botanist's daughters, Twilight, Garden State, Alfie, Across the Universe, The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, Girl Interrupted*, V for Vendetta, The Pianist*, Coraline* TV shows: Fringe, The X-Files, House, The L Word, Death Note, Honey & Clover, 1 Litre of Tears books: A Million Little Pieces, the Uglies series (the first 3 only), everything by Amélie Nothomb

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